Maxwell Nate Hansen

My Beautiful little nephew Maxwell Nate Hansen was born stillborn at 39 weeks at 7 pounds 10 oz. He was perfect, and sooo beautiful. This was May 17th, two months ago. Other than family and close friends, I haven't really wanted to share this because I wasn't ready. I was and still am dealing with it at a pace comfortable for me.

It has been hard to watch my brother and his wife go through this. It has been hard to see them hurt so much. I want to take this away from them. But I know that this was in the plan for them, and that they will come out of this stronger and with so much faith. Max will always be their son. He will always be with them.

He is beautiful, and special and amazing. I love having him as a member of my family. Even if it's not exactly how we wanted it. Emotions are like a roller coaster, and grief is no different. I have been experiences waves emotion of good and bad.

Times when I feel Sad

Times when I feel Angry

Times when I feel Hope

Times when I feel Love and Joy

I miss him and I want him here. I love him so much. He is a very special spirit. His knowledge of the plan is so much bigger than mine, I have so much I need to learn. This was his mission.
He is watching over us and he loves and teaches us everyday.